Wow I dont even know where to start my last entry was in august?
im way outta the loop.
I will update later... sometime if i remember

haha

-Kate

Wasaga was really fun.
I'm actually pretty tan for being a white girl.
Britt & I didnt fight until the last night,
when she took all the covers!!
We were there for 8 days...
on the beach every single one.
I went on gokarts. those were super fun...
I kicked britt's ass in the first 3 laps & then she
caught up to me & that was that.
OF course she bragged about it but whatever. :)
I bought the sims 2 recently & its really slow on my comp.
& really choppy ive spent all day trying to fix it, but my
computer wont download a new Video Drive, its insane!
so im probably going to have to return it. :(

I hung out with sarabeth on sunday.
Dave Anthony & I hung out in sarabeths pool.
hahaha.
Me & Anthony are, are normal selves again being flirtatious.

AT this moment~n~time I want andy. WE are hanging out either thursday or monday or tuesday.... maybe all. Im not sure.
I know tomorrow when I go to work ill be looking for him
but i know he wont be there because he quit.
With Andy its fun because I can talk to him about anything really.
He knows me, he knows that im crazy & im a ditz but I can be really sweet.

I want to just tell him that I want to be with him, but
I dont want to get him into trouble, & I dont want to
mess with this situation but I want him to be able to
trust him.
I'll never meet a guy like him, hes really one of a kind.
Guess we will see what happends...

Ill put pictures up tomorrow.
lata

-kate

pushy.
a tease.
a bitch.
stubborn.
Annoying.
Hilarious.
Adorable.
Grouchy.
on a one track mind...
but thats why he likes me.

♥ Kates.

& also I am going to Wasaga in 6 daysss.

lataaaaa.

I will miss the people I have met this year... but I wont forget them.
This summer has started off wonderfully, went to the beach with britt, curynn, alex & chelsea. My back finally got TAN!
Tomorrow I am working at 5.pm. Im deffinatly gonna clean my room tomorrow & throw out junk & put some new numbers in my phone.

Work tonight was wonderful except fer the fact that I had to be sent home because me & andy were throwing ice cubs at eachother. He says I should call him when I am older... kinda thinkin about it. Hes verrrry attractive & hes just really funny. I think ill get to know him more because I jump to anything, plus he wants to take me out on a "date" but he wants me to be older. if I was just born a year older you know? Whatttt the hell why am I always too young??!

IM NOT JAILBAIT!!!!!

haha I love life right now...
litte confusing with a couple friends but they just need to take the STICK outta their ass`. Then maybe they'd realize that what they are doing is fucking stupid & unfair. Otherwise I'm just not sure I can be friends with people like them.

♥ Kate.
I want a new phone,

whats a good service??

I have cingular, but I really dislike nextel.
Verison?

I have a job.
I'm not lazy anymore. :)
My frist pay check was $116.
I was excited.
I work almost 5 days a week & I love it.
I love all the guys I work with.
The girls are okay, but I mostly talk to the guys.
I love Sarah, Mandi, Trish, Keri & Amy the most.
Amy & I are the best silverwear rollers ever!
well so says the waitress' & hostess'.
I've actually become friends with the guys at work.
I gave some my cell #. :) gosh they are so hot.
hahahaha.

I miss MY friends though.
I guess if you want to hang out with me, you'll hafta talk to me
at school? Or you'll have to come get me!
Cause I dont have a car & when i'm not working, my parents are.
Curynn, Britt, & SB. This doesnt apply to you girls since you're right down the road!

Funny story::
So my dad came to get me from the house today like always 3:15pm
i'm ready to leave for work. Well today he deffinatly had been drinking
he was telling me that he was SO proud of me & that when I was little he never imagined me ever working. Whatever that means lol. So I knew it because when my dad drinks he gets very happy & likes to kiss you. Its really weird, I know. So we got to the olive garden (i drove) & he goes "im gonna walk you inside" & I was like "?okay?? whatever..." because hes gotta go to work @ 4:00pm. Idk what he was doing but we went into the kitched & my buddy Dave was there (hes so yummy uhgg i want him) anyways so I guess he got actioned off for 32 dollars somewhere? I'm not sure what it was about lol but I think I know. So my dad was like "oh yeah?!?!" & hands him a quarter & says "YOU're MINE COME HERE" My manager & I looked at eachother & we gave that look like ::wow he musta been drinkin:: & so my dad gave Dave a BIG hug & a kiss on the cheek!!! NO LIE! it was sooo embarassing I about died standing there watching my dad hug Dave, I wanted to yell at my dad but you never know what might happen. So my dad left & was talkin to some waiter outside until a little past 4. I was so angry because I know he knows that I knew he was a little tispy. I grabbed dave's arm & wispered in his ear that my dad was tispy. Dave wanted to know what he drank haha but I didnt know. It was horrible, but it will happen again cause thats my dad!


Theres a house party comin up in a week for John & his brother because they just bought a new house & I really want to go. But I doubt it because of the fact that my dad wont let it happen. Maybe ill just lie. Yes it's bad but I need to have some fun too!!

♥ [ket]

I do miss hanging out, so call my cell!

okay so i forgot to update.
lots been happening

I MADE CONCERT CHOIR YES (top choir at phn)
Im getting a new job in a week. Olive Garden :)

Uhmm ive made new bestfriends, new friends the works.
& life is beautiful.
I love it.
I cant wait till summer

these are the things I want to change.
Biting my nails.
Grades. (gettin there)
Loose a lil weight... yes.
Get a boyfriend, but theres a BIG difference..
in wanting a boyfriend & wanting HIM to be your boyfriend.
& I dont know a HIM yet... actually I do. but im not sure.

also I want to hang out with old friends more
& get my license...
im hopin in a couple months id have it. :(

♥ [ked]
oh & i got a improved name from choirrr.

It's been awhile friends...

I dont know what to say really.
Lifes been okay...
MEAPs this week. YAY.
I seem to be getting yelled at a lot either fer
being loud or saying something not suitable fer school. haha
whatever.
I gotta straighten up, my grades suck.
2 A's & the rest D+'s nottt good!
2.2 gpa. hahaha. I suck at life it's deffinatly true!


Ive also been realizing that since ive lost some friends its like whenever they are around I DONT WANT TO BE AROUND.
I tend to walk by myself & be called "slut" a lot..
or I get the lovely comments that I get about older guys & stealin boyfriends. wtf is that?
Life thats what it is.

Some kid punched this kid in the face today...
the kid got KILLED. Blood on the floor... sick.
Yup.that.was.the.gossip.on.the.bus.yo.

I plan on gettin my license in a couple weeks.
I hope it works out. Too bad I wont have a fuckin car to drive in. ha.

Check it:
Birthday tomorrow. 17 babyyy.

yeahhh,
I need love in my life again, I was so much happier.

so I stopped letting people take me for granted.
starting with her
i'm done with her.
& thats all you need to know.

& bryan, uhgg that kid drives me insane.
so he is done with me.
& then says
"you think you really know someone..."
I didnt change, ive always been this way
i've always pushed people away, I dont
know how to be smothered with a lot of friends
& hang out EVERY other day & weekend...
Its hard for me, I need my alone time.
& if you dont like me then whatever
cause ive been like this forever.

I pushed everyone away who
I used to hang out with
except Dave cause that kid is like
a brother.
We get mad & then the next day we just
start talking.
so now I'm gonna go back to
wishing I was never bored
& always had someone to hang out with.
but i'm happy that now I can just be
relaxed on the weekends.

I really wanna start hanging out
with the friends I used to hang with.
like megan, ally, mandi, Britt, Kelc & dave
I do miss hanging out with them.

& id like to hang out with the friends
ive become really close with too.
I cant wait till my birthday in
MARCH cause then
ima gonna invite all of them over.
Haha.

This update was stupid.
Im just startin a change & I like it so far.

♥ Kates.

Hes done.
I failed.
enough information?

probably not.

♥

No ones ever taken your place.
Not even the ones that have fallen for me.
I still hate how I got left behind.
I always do. Over & over & over again.
He thinks i'm crazy.
He thought I was annoying.
He was using me.
& he wanted ass.
It never goes my way.
& im not exaggerating.
I cant remember what its like to be loved.
My family is a bitch. There is no family.
Im drained.
I decided I had enough of him & told him off.
I didnt mean it.
He thinks i've cracked & gone insane.
We arent talking. Ive been blocked & deleted.
& somehow i'm okay.
I just wanna talk, get it all out.
& then we can still talk & be friends,
but not as close as before.

I want to exchange lives.
I know I should be happy at least i'm living & in a house thats warm.
but i'm not. There is nothing to be happy for.
My friends? Ha thats a fucking joke.
Whos there for me? No one but myself.
Im tired of getting up for school &
being surrounded by idiots.
Grow up. Stop being an asshole.
Learn to be respectful.

Josh & I are with out argument, which was childish. Haha.
I adore that kid, hes so funny & I realized I cant be mad at him.

everything with him has been turned upside down.
I have no feelings for him
other then I dislike his attitude.
I hate the way he talks about me,
as if he knows who I really am
"shes just crazy & needs pills cause she has a malfunction"
Yeah thats totally me.
I am going through a lot right now.
I HAVE A RIGHT TO BE INSANE & you know it.
I'm upset & hurt by this whole situation, its my fault
that we arent talking & i'd fix it. but for some reason
I dont want to. It just wouldnt work.


-Kates.